"You potato, u have nothing in your brain" .. told an agitated Anwesha
We were arguing on nothing specific, mostly because of my fat headedness and tubelight like nature, unable to grasp the subtle things easily.
I thought seriously for a moment .. "Yeah, may be it is true, I have grown insensitive towards everything, dipped in selfishness or ego or whatever may be".
But still my ego kept on provoking me.
I retorted back "Cmon, what can I do, I am not able to understand, confused, thats why I am doing mistakes"
"Yeah, yeah, you confused soul, the potatoes have captured your brain, always confused, your brain neurons are not functioning because you are eating lot of potatoes, they have grown fatter, and they are not able to carry any signal anymore." Anwesha retorted back
"Hmm .. very true, it is high time I change my attitude", I thought.
"So what should be done to get rid of the fat potato", I asked with curiosity and quizzical nature.
"As long as the fat potato brain exists, nothing is gonna happen, that fat potato must die" .. Anwesha said.
"But, how can I die and change" .. I was confused again.
"See, you moron, not able to understand this much, everything taking up to yourself literally" .. Anwesha retorted back.
Somehow my tubelight head started glowing ... may be more voltage flow happened somehow
I understood the meaning finally.
"Oh, so you want the death of the fat potato headedness like attitude, hmm .. its a thing to ponder" I told.
"There is nothing to ponedr about, its a split second decision" .. Anwesha told.
"Very true" I thought. "Why the hesitation, bring on the slim and sensible one now on immediately."
With tons of determination, I have killed the fat potato ruthlessly.
From now on, a new slim and sensible one is going to appear permanently :)
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Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Sunday, July 12, 2009
Dream
I was dreaming, don't know what time of night. The dream was beautiful, astounding, marvelous. It had the sense of peace, serenity and calmness as if you do not need anything else. I was amongst all of my closest friends, surrounded and walking in a blissful morning in a plateau full of greenery. Just plain greenery, beautiful warm sunlight spread all across, music of fresh water spring somewhere nearby as if soothing your heart. I thought, oh God, I just want to be in this state forever. Is this eternal piece? Its the moment I always cherished, nothing to worry, no hunger, no work, no stress, nothing, just plain peace and peace and serenity. I have everyone, all friends, everyone I have nearby, this is what I wanted for my entire life. The horizon is looking serene too, conglomerated with the greenery and the greenish yellow tint that the sunshine has created.
... ... ...
Time passed by for some time in this, but slowly the peacefulness in me is getting converted to irritation, I don't know the reason. I am getting agitated, agitated with my friends, agitated with the nature. Is this calmness for long hunting me or is it something else, like a signal before the storm. May be the later was true, in the midst of a brightly lit sunny day, dark clouds started mocking at me. Before I realized, I found that my agitation mixed with my ego, my negative traits, has turned into a monster dark cloud. That is hovering over the brightness of the Sun. Now its growing like a monster, big and strong, I am afraid of that, its full of darkness, thunderstorms are coming, I am trying to escape the lightnings. I am afraid, running like a dog who can not face its opponent who is more powerful, I am running forgetting all friends, running everywhere. But this opponent is created by myself, my traits which I failed to control. I am feeling so low of myself, my self esteem is gone. I am ashamed to show my face to my friends, they are bearing all this because of me too. I am running away with all my force, but the monster grips me, its is going to kill me, oh God, save me please. I became unconscious.
... ... ...
Suddenly after sometime, when I got back my consciousness, found that the thunderstorm is over, the serenity is not like earlier, but its still peaceful. The thunderstorm just had an impression for a small moment, but now the plateau looks more beautiful. And all friends are around me, telling how they restored me from the thunderstorms. This is more beautiful, much more that the serenity in the early morning. It may not be the same, but its much more meaningful now for me. Its so strange, despite me succumbing, initiating and causing all the trouble, all friends are still with me, they saved me, and we are in a much greater friendship now, which can not be broken anymore. I am indebted to all my friends forever, to everyone whoever has helped me anytime. And those friends who had saved me from this monstrous thunder, I cannot describe how much I owe them. I am still feeling low as why I ran away leaving all of them to face the wrath of the thunder (AFAIK created by me).
... ... ...
My sleep broke, its early morning, Birds are chirping, the chanting of mantras from nearby temple is soothing.
Later in the day I told Anwesha the dream. How I got saved, and she was there too to save me amongst few others too.
I asked, "Why did friends save me when I caused them the trouble, when I left them and started running?"
"That is why friends are for, they do not desert you even if you have committed mistakes and even if they are in deep water because of you. Just make sure that, if ever you face that situation in real life, do not run away, face the thunder, face the monster along with your friends, you are sure to overcome it. Everyone commits mistakes, without mistakes how can you learn, so do not think much what you had done bad, how you had hurt others, think what you can do in future. Life is more beautiful when you overcome obstacles together, not when you are in serenity without any event, nor when you runaway. Face it always, true friends will be always by your side whatever the situation may be." ... Anwesha said with a jovial voice.
P.S. This is a completely imaginary dream, though at times I feel like this
... ... ...
Time passed by for some time in this, but slowly the peacefulness in me is getting converted to irritation, I don't know the reason. I am getting agitated, agitated with my friends, agitated with the nature. Is this calmness for long hunting me or is it something else, like a signal before the storm. May be the later was true, in the midst of a brightly lit sunny day, dark clouds started mocking at me. Before I realized, I found that my agitation mixed with my ego, my negative traits, has turned into a monster dark cloud. That is hovering over the brightness of the Sun. Now its growing like a monster, big and strong, I am afraid of that, its full of darkness, thunderstorms are coming, I am trying to escape the lightnings. I am afraid, running like a dog who can not face its opponent who is more powerful, I am running forgetting all friends, running everywhere. But this opponent is created by myself, my traits which I failed to control. I am feeling so low of myself, my self esteem is gone. I am ashamed to show my face to my friends, they are bearing all this because of me too. I am running away with all my force, but the monster grips me, its is going to kill me, oh God, save me please. I became unconscious.
... ... ...
Suddenly after sometime, when I got back my consciousness, found that the thunderstorm is over, the serenity is not like earlier, but its still peaceful. The thunderstorm just had an impression for a small moment, but now the plateau looks more beautiful. And all friends are around me, telling how they restored me from the thunderstorms. This is more beautiful, much more that the serenity in the early morning. It may not be the same, but its much more meaningful now for me. Its so strange, despite me succumbing, initiating and causing all the trouble, all friends are still with me, they saved me, and we are in a much greater friendship now, which can not be broken anymore. I am indebted to all my friends forever, to everyone whoever has helped me anytime. And those friends who had saved me from this monstrous thunder, I cannot describe how much I owe them. I am still feeling low as why I ran away leaving all of them to face the wrath of the thunder (AFAIK created by me).
... ... ...
My sleep broke, its early morning, Birds are chirping, the chanting of mantras from nearby temple is soothing.
Later in the day I told Anwesha the dream. How I got saved, and she was there too to save me amongst few others too.
I asked, "Why did friends save me when I caused them the trouble, when I left them and started running?"
"That is why friends are for, they do not desert you even if you have committed mistakes and even if they are in deep water because of you. Just make sure that, if ever you face that situation in real life, do not run away, face the thunder, face the monster along with your friends, you are sure to overcome it. Everyone commits mistakes, without mistakes how can you learn, so do not think much what you had done bad, how you had hurt others, think what you can do in future. Life is more beautiful when you overcome obstacles together, not when you are in serenity without any event, nor when you runaway. Face it always, true friends will be always by your side whatever the situation may be." ... Anwesha said with a jovial voice.
P.S. This is a completely imaginary dream, though at times I feel like this
Saturday, May 23, 2009
Conversation - Part 1 (On friendship)
Me: "Why is it so that sometimes fight erupts even between the best of friends? Is it lack of understanding, or lack of trust between them?"
Anwesha: "Hell, no, there can never be lack of understanding between true friends."
Me: "Still, the worst fight, worst quarrel happens always between best friends. you can never quarrel to a great extent with an unknown person or an acquaintance. You can check history. There are so many instances. It goes even till harming to the core. Why, why do you always fight with your best friends? You do all kind of nonsense with them .. which should not be there .."
Anwesha: "You moron, don't understand that much, you can quarrel, can fight, can get angry on those whom you love dearly only, and they are none other than your best friends. You are talking about history, go and check despite thousands of quarrels, fights finally friendship prevails. Does mountain moves when a big thunderstorm occurs, it only establishes its presence even more, only mere trees gets uprooted. The friendship between best friends are like mountains, it gets strengthen only when some quarrel, fight in the form of thunderstorms happens, only non-true friendships like trees can not face the thunderstorms. "
Me: "But, its so depressing, every time I fight with my best friends, I lose my sanity, I curse myself why I did that, I do not forgive myself even though mistakes might be from either side. How to cope with this?"
Anwesha: "Whatever happens happens, that is part of friendship only. Small fights, even sometimes bigger ones keep on happening. No one is culprit in that. One should not think or get bogged down by those. It should only strengthen the bond forever. And you know, best friends do not care about it, they bypass the thunderstorms like passers by, and keep their head up like mountains. Its unmitigated. As long as you do not keep on regretting about the incidents, nothing will happen. The root of their understanding, trust can never be forsaken. You might have even fought for silly things, might have intentionally hurt the other, buts that's the part of a package named as 'true friendship'. Think that every quarrel is one more layer of plaster to your friendship. Just forget the past and go on."
P.S. Isn't is very true. So I have started forgiving myself and forgetting the past. I am looking forward to the brighter sunrise after every dark night.
Anwesha: "Hell, no, there can never be lack of understanding between true friends."
Me: "Still, the worst fight, worst quarrel happens always between best friends. you can never quarrel to a great extent with an unknown person or an acquaintance. You can check history. There are so many instances. It goes even till harming to the core. Why, why do you always fight with your best friends? You do all kind of nonsense with them .. which should not be there .."
Anwesha: "You moron, don't understand that much, you can quarrel, can fight, can get angry on those whom you love dearly only, and they are none other than your best friends. You are talking about history, go and check despite thousands of quarrels, fights finally friendship prevails. Does mountain moves when a big thunderstorm occurs, it only establishes its presence even more, only mere trees gets uprooted. The friendship between best friends are like mountains, it gets strengthen only when some quarrel, fight in the form of thunderstorms happens, only non-true friendships like trees can not face the thunderstorms. "
Me: "But, its so depressing, every time I fight with my best friends, I lose my sanity, I curse myself why I did that, I do not forgive myself even though mistakes might be from either side. How to cope with this?"
Anwesha: "Whatever happens happens, that is part of friendship only. Small fights, even sometimes bigger ones keep on happening. No one is culprit in that. One should not think or get bogged down by those. It should only strengthen the bond forever. And you know, best friends do not care about it, they bypass the thunderstorms like passers by, and keep their head up like mountains. Its unmitigated. As long as you do not keep on regretting about the incidents, nothing will happen. The root of their understanding, trust can never be forsaken. You might have even fought for silly things, might have intentionally hurt the other, buts that's the part of a package named as 'true friendship'. Think that every quarrel is one more layer of plaster to your friendship. Just forget the past and go on."
P.S. Isn't is very true. So I have started forgiving myself and forgetting the past. I am looking forward to the brighter sunrise after every dark night.
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